Dear Santa Claus
I write to you because
I don’t want toys this year
I just want my daddy here
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But I’m sad for him now ‘cause he won’t be home for Christmas
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Freedom’s why we’re here
Freedom from our fear
Isn’t anybody free that lets another be
I pray your angels around those who won’t be home for Christmas
And everybody will sing the birth of the king
Sha la la la
Sha la la la
“Won’t Be Home For Christmas”
By: Hootie & The Blowfish
I know you won’t make it home for Christmas daddy but I know you are watching over me.
This morning Rico and I had breakfast and sat in the same booth you and I would often sit at. And guess what I drunk? Coffee, yes your favorite. I miss how your mustache would hang over the brim of the cup as you would drink your coffee dark and hot. I would always put so much creamer and sugar in mine until it was caramel brown.
Remember the time I put salt in the coffee instead of sugar? Remember what you said? You said, “I know what you did, I just wanted to see if you were stupid enough to drink it!” Boy did we laugh even though you hurt my feelings- tough love you would say, right daddy??!!!
It’s Christmas Eve and it doesn’t feel much like Christmas at all. Medical experts feel in order to slow the spread of COVID that we should have virtual Christmas and stay at home. I sure miss gathering with everyone. I miss the laughter, the food, opening our Christmas presents, I miss the oohhhs and awwws of it all.
Most of all I miss you at Christmas daddy.
Though it has been thirteen years you haven’t been home for Christmas I still miss you like you left us yesterday.
Guess what daddy? Rico and I are in the process of buying our first home!!! Well I guess you knew that I saw the R.E.D. bird chirping away in the backyard when we were there. I wish Uncle George was here too because I need someone to build me a front covered porch, a sunroom in the back, and pour a concrete slab in the back so the kids can have a basketball court. I know he would have loved to do it.
I can hear him now, “come here boo boo, now where you want the court and how big you want this or that.” He had so many talents and he probably wouldn’t have charged me much of anything.
Daddy one of your best friends has been on our hearts and prayers. Rev. West hasn’t been feeling his best and then Rev McCray and Mr Fletcher but I know you know all about it. Watch over them daddy like you watch over me.
I sure miss you daddy! You’re probably calling me a chump right now because I’m sitting in the kitchen looking back wishing you would come down the stairs. You would have been up at the crack of dawn and would be wiping the tears from my cheeks right now.
I wonder what you are doing right now to prepare for Christmas. It is true what they say- there is Christmas in Heaven? Well Faith’s dad came to join you all last week along with Ms. Hammonds mother. We sure miss them too. As a matter of fact so many people have lost so many loved ones lately but I know you all are celebrating.
The Bible teaches us in 2 Corinthians 5:8 that we are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord.
You made it home along with so many others and we are missing you down here. But I know that my flesh and my heart and going to fail one day, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
I knew God is your strength too daddy. The most valuable things that you and mom could have taught us was the Word of God. Thanks daddy! It’s the Word of God that help us process and keep on keeping on in times like this. As I cry it is bringing such healing knowing you don’t have to worry about the coronavirus, the flu, and all this other foolishness here on Earth. I’m crying missing you and you probably crying because of what we are facing. But we both know the God we serve and His plans to prosper us and not to harm us.
If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.
Romans 14:8
Daddy I know God is wiping the tears from my eyes right now. I know He is close to all of us who are broken-hearted and He is saving those of us who are crushed in spirit.
As I write God is comforting me. I know God’s word in my heart and it is my prayer that He will use my time of mourning to help encourage someone who also is missing their mom, dad, or whomever else.
The same way God has given me peace, it is my prayer that He has provided that same peace for those missing someone this Christmas Eve.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
John 14:27
When you passed away daddy, I learned to love God more deeply. I was lost without you; God became my daddy. He filled the emptiness and the void I felt the day you took your last breath. God is my God forever and I thank Him for still guiding me.
“Therefore you too have grief now; but I will see you again, and your heart will rejoice, and no one will take your joy away from you.
John 16:22
When I first started writing to you my heart was so heavy but God has given me peace because I know I will see you again.
🎶 In the morning, the morning,
It’ll be all over in the morning.
Ain’t no need in worrying
What the night is going to bring,
It’ll be all over in the morning. 🎶
Keep watching over me daddy this Christmas and beyond. I’ll drink, eat, and be merry as we celebrate the birth of Jesus for we know Jesus is the reason for the season.
And one last thing daddy, Have a very Merry Christmas in Heaven daddy. I love you!
🤗🤗🤗😔❤❤
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