Whitnee's journey with Christ

Emotions have run high and rampant lately. Just as I finish praising God for His miraculous works and thanking Him for keeping me, crap happens! I mean news flash: such is life right?! So like most of you I’ve gone day in and day out still thanking God, still trying to find the positives, thinking positively, and just doing what I have to do to continue to run the race. Then more crap happens. I’ll be honest (excuse me for being so candid) but then situations start to get even more murky and I’m torn feeling like “what the hell!” sometimes. And when those times come; I’m not going to front and be fake like I don’t have those moments (be real with yourself, we all have those moments) I really have to cry out to God for help. I really have to read His word and recite Psalm 23, the Lord’s Prayer, more scripture and listen to gospel music to get back in the right zone/the right head space.

Over the years I have learned to make God my first and my last step verses my back up plan. I’ve gone through phases when I tried to handle it on my own. I’ve gone through phases when I thought talking and telling those close to me (venting) and thinking that would help but it was only temporary. Then at one point I thought maybe if I just sleep it off things will get better, if I take a shot or three of this good ole tequila maybe a few blurred lines later things won’t seem as bad as I thought, or maybe just maybe I go do some shopping/retail therapy all of my problems will disappear with a brand new pair of shoes later. Ladies and gentlemen conversations later, after spending hundreds of dollars, empty Lunazel bottles, and a mattress that needs to be replaced soon I realized that God is my all in all.

He is the answer. Always has been, is, and always will be!

Disclaimer: This doesn’t mean stuff won’t happen. Of course things are going to happen. Things will happen to test your faith, sometimes make you question your faith, leave your faith, help strengthen your faith, and/or cause you to anchor down in your faith.

I put that disclaimer out there because I don’t want to send the wrong impression that giving everything to God won’t appear to come without its challenges. I didn’t want anyone to read todays message to assume I was saying my faith isn’t strong enough or I’m not living the way pleasing to God because I go through things because that’s not what I’m saying.

But like what scripture says here and it’s illustrated so beautifully in the 2nd book of Kings through Josiah- we must turn to God with all of our heart, all of our soul, and with all of our might. Friends can’t support you like God can. Spending money won’t solve your problems but it could have you end up in the po house. Drinking won’t run your sorrows away but it will kill your liver. And sleeping won’t stop things because when you wake up the same problems exist. But trusting in God- He will renew your mind, He will change your mindset, He will restore your focus, He will give you peace!

And because we serve an amazing God, He will put people in your life that will point us back to Him. This morning I was feeling so down and so low and my feelings were all kind of jacked up. I had asked someone to pray for me and God heard their prayer and through that prayer this beautiful woman of God sent a song that blew my mind. The name of the song is entitled Something Has to Break by Kierra Sheard, Tasha Cobb-Leonard and friends. Click here to be blown away by a song that will truly help you release all of the negative thoughts, evil attempts that try to steal your joy, worship God, and a song that is CONFIRMATION that God is working even in the midst of your trials, tests, and storms. Shout out to Brittney and the Koinonia Women’s Support Group.

After listening to this song the hold that the enemy thought he had on me BROKE! Something broke in the house this morning! Something broke in my mind this morning! Something broke in my spirit this morning! The chains of oppression were broken this morning! The hand of confusion, doubt, fear, insecurity, feelings that I wasn’t worthy, and anxiety broke this morning!!!!!!!!!

Is there anyone this morning that needs something to break in their lives? The enemy trying to make you feel like you are not worthy of the blessings coming your way? He trying to fool you like all you deserve is scraps? He trying to make you feel like you can’t find love? Like you not supposed to be happy? Like you can’t be rich? Like you don’t have God’s favor? Like your feelings don’t matter? 🚨 My sisters and brothers we have to shake that devil off and we have to pray him away and tell him to flee.

The enemy don’t want to attack the lost; they are where he wants them. He not going after the drug attack on Prescott, the drugs have him or her in a daze. The enemy not going after those in the graveyard, they dead! No he is going to try to put in work where He knows God will get the glory! He is going to try to finesse your mind until you think you loosing it. But can I tell you my brothers and sisters the same help that came into my house that snatched me up when I felt like I was loosing it, Will deliver you. If He did it for me, HE WILL DO IT FOR YOU!

Let’s remain faithful my friends. Let’s be like Josiah and be committed to following Christ. It’s so easy to throw in the towel and to give up; sure I’ve been there. But what do you gain? (NOTHING)

I am striving every day to make God and keep God as the focus of my life. He is my Lord and Savior and I have to commit to doing His Will for my life. I have to recommit myself to His ways and do what is pleasing to Him. I am a sinner and I fall short and I ask God for forgiveness. I’m not perfect nor do I portray to be. I admit I’m a mess; but I’m God’s mess. And I believe as things are changing daily and evolving God is creating a masterpiece out of the mess I am. I’m praying my mess will bless the next person who is going through or has gone through something.

I received this quote that I had to share with you. It gave me so much inspiration and encouragement when I was going some things mentally all night and all morning. I pray it will encourage you.

God placed it on my heart to share with those reading today to not give up on God because He won’t give up on you. He is working and moving and a breakthrough is coming. Remain faithful. Ask God for His strength when you are weak. Resist temptation. Fast and pray. Like my friend says to me all the time, be patient with yourself and honor your feelings. Your feelings matter, what you go through matters and your pain is important also. Don’t deny how you feel just to try to keep a certain image; who cares what people think or say about you. They don’t have a Heaven or hell to put you in.

I want to close with this thought- every day isn’t going to be a good day and it may have its challenges BUT by the grace of God we live to see a new day. A new start, a new beginning, and another change to do what we didn’t get a chance to do yesterday. Don’t waste your time worrying about what happened yesterday- it’s in the past. Don’t worry about what you didn’t do- get back to it and seize the opportunity to do it now. Allow God to dwell in your heart and establish that relationship with Him. It’s like a burning desire, you won’t regret it.

Thank you Lord for breaking the chain of bondage, fear, confusion, mistrust, and doubt. Thank you Lord for allowing me to come to you admitting I am a sinner but still choosing to love me. Thank you guide that you are a forgiving God. Thank you for your son Jesus. Thank you for His blood and sacrifice. Thank you for the gift of words. Thank you for allowing me to express myself through words and the sweet release it provides as I call upon Your name. I give you all the honor and the glory. For it is in the sweet name of Jesus that I pray, Amen.